I'm a gamer, and I need to vent about something personal. This was the only place I could think of to get things off my chest to people who understand.

This may get down voted to oblivion, but I need to talk. I hope you guys understand.

I love video games. I always have, ever since I got my first SNES, and Gameboy Color around the age of 7, I've been going on epic adventures. I'm 27 years old now, and I still love gaming, but it has more meaning now. When I was young, I had no worries. Now, I am a husband, father, student, and employee. I am the very definition of an adult, and it's terrible. My son doesn't listen to me, he whines and complains, and only ever wants to talk about Minecraft. He's incredibly smart, but he's to lazy and just refuses to listen. He prefers my wife's company because I am the stern parent, while Mom let's him get away with anything. It's infuriating!

Speaking of my wife, I love the woman. I would move heaven and earth for her, and often do. I work hard, and grab as many hours as I can get to make money, I then come home and take care of her. I get her food, I rub her neck, feet, shoulders, ect. Basically, if it's bothering her, I do everything in my power to fix it. If she's upset I will go to Walmart at three in the morning to get ice cream to make her feel better. I do these things, because I love her more than anything in the world. But I don't really get any of that back. When I'm sad (which happens more often than anyone knows) she never seems to realize it. She just assumes I'm angry or pissed off at her. I then have to channel my energy into making sure she isn't upset, which completely overshadows how I feel. I feel so incredibly underappreciated in my own home, and it's terrible. And what's worse is that she hates video games. She rarely ever wants to play even though I have bought multiple games specifically for her, because I want her to enjoy my world. Not to mention everything else I buy for her, just to show my appreciation. But she has never really reciprocated. Oh, and she gets mad when I buy video games because "I always buy everything I want, and never give her a chance." Woman, I have mentioned tons of games over the years which I wanted, then months later I eventually buy it. It's not at all my fault that you refuse to show your appreciation for me and buy me something new and fun to play!

This is why video games are so important to me. When I turn on my game, I stoo being the stern dad, or the unappreciated husband. I become the Hero of Time, I fight the Covenant as a Spartan, I defend the world from aliens as the commander of Xcom, or I travel across the land, trying to catch them all. Video games are the absolutely only reason I can cope with the world at large. Today's world is pretty shitty, and I feel completely alone sometimes, and yet people wonder how grown adults can waste time and money on gaming. I'll tell you why, when the world pushes me to the breaking point, I can either fall off the edge and plummet into darkness, or I can reach for a controller and fight back.

Sorry for ranting, I am just so frustrated, and particularly down low tonight, and really needed to get this off my chest before I exploded.